Monday, July 16, 2007

All Through the Night

40 Days of Chantix / 28 Days of Breathing Smoke Free

I'm not quite sure what happened, but apparently I never went to bed last night. As the birds were chirping and a bit later the sun came up I realized that all of my more often than usual urges must have finally left because I didn't even bother going to bed to escape them. All day long yesterday I'd been kind of looking forward to getting to the end of the day and doing just that, but I got interested doing stuff, reading stuff, singing to the cats instead. It's good to know that the onslaught of urges was just temporary and that I'm back to content with not smoking. I guess tonight will be an early night ;)

Just for the record, no, my little all nighter likely had zero to do with the Chantix. I've always been a night owl, and every few months I just get too preoccupied to be sensible and go to bed like a normal person. Treating myself to that yummy and delicious Dutch Bros latte that I've been promising myself probably just added to it. Plus all the coffee before that.

Anyway, I do think today will be a little bit easier. There are ups and downs to this quitting smoking process, even with Chantix, but in the big general overall picture, little by little and up by down (yikes, anyone else think of ee cummings and how town - best poem ever - right there?), I'm starting to feel more like the non-smoker I've already become. It's like the non-smoker body is already there, and it just takes some adjustments once in awhile to get my mind all situated in it just right. OK, end of sleep deprived ramblings - made sense in my head when I typed it.


  1. Congrats on your 4 weeks smoke free.

  2. Sounds like you've had a crazy couple of days. Good work not smoking.

    I am with you, it's still at little off putting when you get urges seemingly out of no where. I suppose it will be this way for a long time to come. It's ok though, these urges are easy to resist compared.

    Stay strong, we're making it!

  3. Thanks, Nathan. Yep, the urges could be worse, and we are all on our way!

  4. ...apparently I never went to bed last night.

    That had me laughing for a good while, if only because I know the feeling (work the graveyard shift).

    Awesome work on four weeks smoke free!

  5. Thank you, Chris! Glad I gave you a chuckle ;)


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