Friday, July 06, 2007

Identity Shift to Non-Smoker

Day 18 as a non-smoker, Day 30 Chantix. Slowly, ever so slowly, I'm starting to actually think of myself more and more as a non-smoker instead of as someone who is quitting smoking. It's kind of the same thing, but it's also kind of different. Most actual non-smokers I know don't sit around blogging about not smoking and reading other people's blogs almost obsessively or dealing with urges to smoke, but it seems like each day I'm getting a little further along on the path, a little further from the cravings, and a little closer to actually thinking of myself as, and feeling like I am, a true non-smoker. I'll get there. I'm not even really in any hurry as long as I just stay quit, but it's something I thought about this morning when it's already past my the first hour of my work day, and I haven't yet had a single urge (they'll come, I know, but this is nice). For most of the people in cubes around me, that's just a matter of course, every day. For me, it's actually kind of a big deal.

2 comments:

  1. I know how exciting THAT is!!! Even though soon you'll be thinking of yourself as a non-smoker, just remember that you WERE a smoker, and that you chose to quit. You can never go back!

    Congratulations! I love reading your thoughts! I can't wait till we both celebrate our first 6 months! :)

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  2. Stan, amen to that. I've quit for over a year in the past only to go back, always thinking I wouldn't. This time, I hope that I can be a non-smoker with a good memory ;)

    I love reading about your journey, too!

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