I know that back about, well, a month ago, I kind of jumped the gun and thought it was 6 months since I quit smoking, but back then it was actually only 5 months. This time, it really is 6 months.
Today has been absolutely nuts, and when I re-read the post I posted in error that day a month ago, it sounded pretty much exactly where I am today, so I'm "recycling" it instead of posting nothing, which was my other option for today.
Yesterday was 6 months since I quit smoking back on June 18, 2007. Lots of thoughts occurred to me in the shower this morning ranging from "wow, 6 months is a chunk" to "wow, and there are still moments I'd like to smoke." Don't get me wrong, I've said the same a million times, it's still way better now day to day than it was at the start in the early Chantix and just post Chantix days, and I can remember my last real meltdown. It will be awhile probably before I'm comfortable around certain triggers, and I'll take my time. I just really, really want this to stick this time for good. I don't ever want to have to go through the whole quitting smoking thing again, even if Chantix and fellow bloggers made it a much easier path. I still hold with the thought that this process, like most in my life, actually, is not a straight line from "hard/difficult/bad" headed diagonally up on a graph to "easy/no problem/who me? I used to smoke?" and that there are peaks and valleys, ups and downs, all along this worthy path, still always headed in that direction even when it appears that there are minor downturns. Lately, the downturns have become fewer and further, and I'm delighted and thankful for all of my fellow Chantix bloggers.Yep, all still the same. Today I'm too busy to devote much time to thinking about the fact that I used to smoke. Sometimes too busy isn't too bad of a thing.