Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Doesn't Sound Good

Today is Smoke-free Day 177.

This morning, in a rare moment of rarity, for a few brief moments, not only did I pause and realize that I didn't want to smoke, but it also kind of made me think "ick" as if I was not only OK with not smoking, but it actually didn't even sound at all good or appealing. This does happen sometimes, especially while smoking those last ones while still on the Chantix (though that was more actual nausea), and sometimes since, I suppose. Of course, this far into the process is a bazillion times easier than at the start, but most of the time I still feel like I would love it if I could smoke (could meaning if I could smoke and not smell bad, waste money, ruin my health and worry about it or give up my kisses and ability to laugh without coughing - doesn't work that way, though, and I'm no longer willing to trade that stuff for poison). The feeling was fleeting, but it was there. I felt it. I know some folks have been feeling this not interested thing since about week one, but people are different, and time takes its sweet time with me so I'm just now getting around to it here and there once in awhile like today for a quick bit. And I gotta say, I kind of liked it having smoking not even sounding remotely good, so that elusive feeling is welcome back anytime. Door's open. Coffee is on.

6 comments:

  1. I love those feelings. I especially get them when my husband comes in smelling like it. It reminds me of how much I don't want one and I've even found it doesn't bother me as much when he goes out to have one anymore. (The part that bothers me is his coat smelling up the house.) He started his Chantix yesterday, so hopefully he'll do well on it, too.

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  2. Hi - I just came over from Sarcastic Mom....

    My grandma gave up smoking almost 35 years ago and at 86 she still says that when the doctors tell her she's only got a month or so to live the first thing she'll do is go get a pack of cigarettes...

    But she used to shave her eyebrows and draw them in like Greta Garbo and vacuum the house in her housecoat and stilettos, so I think it's just a glamour thang!

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  3. I'm glad for ya Maggie! I've had those feelings, I just wish they would come and stay.

    I still get some pretty good cravings every day, but at the same time, the thought of being a smoker again just isn't something that I want to be.

    Can a person smoke & not be a smoker? I don't think so, so I won't be smoking. lol

    You are awesome!

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  4. It is a wonderful feeling when you think, "ewwwww, that doesn't appeal to me at all!"

    I've had it a few times and other times when I get the opposite reaction, I force myself to think, "ewwwww, that doesn't appeal to me at all!"

    Conditioned response!

    Maggie, you're a great influence and are doing wonderful with the non-smoking. So glad you're still posting!

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  5. Hang in there, you're doing just fine!

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  6. Lynda, so glad to hear your husband is getting onto the same path. Should make it easier.

    Badness, I love your grandma!!

    Thanks, Sue! The feelings of not wanting to smoke sure are a treat.

    Sherri, yes, much of it is probably conditioned response finally kicking in just a bit.

    Thanks, Jientje, appreciate the support!

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