Friday, December 14, 2007

Not Smoking at People

Today is Smoke-free Day 179.

I had a good cry last night (gawd, I do sound like a girl) because my good Tom let me pound on his chest like a toddler and have a little tantrum about things out of my control on a day that had me just angry to the point of tears and seething (livid, irate, enraged, furious and incensed are probably more accurate - anger synonyms also happen to be my personal favorites, personally). I haven't been quite that outraged since I quit smoking, and at one point the thought of smoking at the offending party didn't sound all bad.

You know, get really pissed off and use it as an excuse to smoke, as if it even matters at all (doesn't) to the person that's supposedly the object of your vengeful smoking (who we'll call the smokee)? From past experience, the smokee that gets smoked at doesn't care, and the smoker that smoked at the smokee is just left minus $5 (give or take) and with a couple lungs full of re-gunked cilia, a sense of failure and still madder than a hornet. Similar types of not so great results with eating at, drinking at or doing other stuff at people in anger, I hear.

So, nope, I'll not be smoking at anyone. I do, however, reserve the right to be irate. Thankfully, I woke up not wanting to bother doing that, either, so my spirits are in decent shape, I regret nothing and my lungs are loving me big time. Not smoking at someone who "deserved" it paid off for me, and that's what matters.


  1. :(

    I hope you're having a better day today. Try imagining the bad person in various stages of the Spanish Inquisition....naked....and covered in honey....and fire ants....with a "Kick Me" sign on his/her back.


  2. Your posting is so timely, Maggie! I just spoke to a friend who has been on Chantix for about a week. He was having a very stressful day at work, and he said, "I swear, my boss is determined to make me smoke!". I said, you should never smoke in anger - you'll regret it, because the person with whom you're trying to get even (the smokee) is never even going to know or care that you broke your promise to yourself and smoked. You, however, will be mightily pissed at yourself AFTER you smoke. It's not worth it. I'm going to share this post with him - it's amazing how right on-the-money it is! I'm glad you didn't smoke!

  3. Thanks, Tasina! All is good.

    Bob, loved hearing about the timing! Funny how that happens. You are right, not worth it ;)

  4. Oh my God, I so relate! This is why I love reading blogs by quitters and doing my own. I am irate, outraged and furious at a really unjust situation that is happening in my life right now. I too thought about smoking "at" this idiot because I was seething inside. I would not do any good and the only one that really will suffer is me. I have had to really work hard to stay off cigarettes so to just smoke at a person to stuff my feelings of anger down really doesn't make sense. I would have made perfect sense two months ago but fortunately, I know better. Thanks for this post Maggie! I am with you in spirit!

  5. MzDiva, glad you can relate, and hope the situation doesn't stay that way.


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