Today is smoke-free day 234.
I used to get these weird and scary vision problems accompanied by half of my body going numb, and I could never figure it out. The first one was when I was in Japan, and I just remember trying to express that while my vision was all screwed up and sort of "wavy" or like there were watery holes in what I was trying to see. I really didn't think it was quite an eye doctor thing and more like an emergency room thing, but sometimes I had trouble getting my point across in Japan, things lost in translation and whatnot. While I stood there reading the chart (no, it wasn't in Japanese, actually, oddly), half of my body just went numb and seemed unconnected to the rest of me. I was sure that I was having a stroke and going to die right there. I didn't.
It would be several more of these and many years later that I would come to understand from Googling my symptoms (a favorite pastime of mine) that I was actually probably experiencing migraines, just often without the whole headache aspect, or a headache with onset so much later (hours later or even the next day) and so much less severe than what I would have expected, almost like a "normal" headache, that I wouldn't have suspected a migraine. Apparently I'd been just getting the "aura" aspect of the migraine and was doing the right thing by going into the darkest and quietest room I could find to take a nap for awhile until it went away.
Something has changed because I did the nap thing yesterday after my whole left side felt all disconnected from my body after lunch, and I woke up still not right and as recently as this morning experiencing some gentle stabbing (is that possible?) in the area of my head above my eye. And I'm not in a great mood. At all. And I even feel a little uneasy in the stomach.
I'm not to be trifled with today.
The good news is that caffeine is helpful for migraines (coffee mug? check.) and smoking is bad for migraines (took Chantix, became someone who no longer smokes? check.). I think I'm going to live, and I am just grateful that I don't get the really bad kind because I'm starting to get it now how long it can last and how many un-fun stuff there is along the path of a migraine, even in my little sampling I'm experiencing. Please pass the coffee, hold the smokes.