Sunday, February 10, 2008

Still There

Today is smoke-free day 237. A beautiful and rare bit of sunshine graced my balcony this morning, and I had to step out for a breath of fresh air just to experience it because it's been mostly raining for the past ten thousand years several weeks here in my corner of Oregon, and the next sun break could be months away (or just seem like it).

Now, I know that back in my Chantix days as a newly quit non-smoker I'd posted about how I'd reclaimed the balcony as mine all smoke-free mine to enjoy and that there was no smoke monster living out there to force me to smoke. True enough, I didn't go out there and somehow magically find myself smoking, but it was definitely my first thought, even now.

Apparently the mindset of the former smoker me is still there, but it's fine, though, because each day behind me not smoking is another bit of strength continuing forward, and it is *nothing* like the struggle in the beginning. I'm confident I'll make it to bedtime without smoking, and it probably won't even be difficult. It's all still one day at a time here. Piece of cake (mmm... cake).

9 comments:

  1. I know what you mean but it's still great to hear that you went out on the balcony and still didn't smoke, what a breath of fresh air (yes a pun was intended).
    You've done it Maggie, you've kicked the habit!!

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  2. I still find myself in those situations where your mind automatically thinks it's time for a smoke, but it only takes a second and then it's gone. Good for you, Maggie!

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  3. Love your new picture MamaFlo - I want to be near blue water and sunshine!!!!

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  4. Gotta love those neural pathways, eh? But each time you go out there and don't light up, you're cementing a new and better neural pathway - so yay for you!

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  5. Mmm... cake!
    Thanks for the suggestion you made. I'll look into it!

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  6. I watched a movie today and one of the characters was smoking. I had this huge inner lunge towards the screen - but then it went away. It still happens, but we're better than that!

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  7. Thanks, everyone! Always glad to know I'm in good company and that we can all make it through just fine. Easier now, much easier!

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  8. I have those thoughts that come to me too...especially when I am stressed. Sometimes not taking the action to smoke when the impulse rears its ugly head is the best action we can take for that particular second. Quitting smoking is not only a one day at a time thing but sometimes its one second at a time thing....at least for me.
    Peace,
    Diva

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  9. I really REALLY enjoyed this post. I am on day six and I can't even look outside to the patio without having a craving. It's hard, so hard. I can't even believe I don't smoke. I miss it!!! And that's sad.

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