Thursday, March 13, 2008

New Fairly Normal

Today is smoke-free day 269. For so long I felt like a smoker who was consciously trying not to be one at every turn throughout the day. It took some mental work having to constantly battle the cravings/urges/tuggings/whispers all day long, but I'm thinking it was all worth it. Today I just feel like someone who used to smoke, but not recently, and *not* smoking actually feels fairly normal now instead of like some cruel self-imposed injustice. Of course, I'm also not currently sitting in a smoky room with a smoker next to me and a drink in my hand, so that also helps...

Um, yah, for now, that's about all I've got, and on a whiny, self-absorbed and melancholic day full of drivel in my brain piece like today, all of the above is enough, plenty even (yes, I'm sparing you the details because I like you and because I'm just not really fit for public consumption, just trust).

2 comments:

  1. Congrats at getting feeling normal when you're not smoking. As boring as that sounds, it makes a world of difference when you hit that stage in your quit.

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  2. Sorry you're having a blue week.

    BUT!!!

    It's not a week filled with stinky blue cigarette smoke haze and that's an amazing thing. Because you are amazing for coming this far on your journey.

    Chin up young person.

    *p.s. we are open for venting all week and the cut rate price of FREE*

    :)

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