Friday, August 22, 2008

Haiku Friday 8/22/08 - Part Four

Haiku Friday
俳句の金曜日

Previous Installments:
Prologue-Boo!, Part One-Leaving, Part Two-"Adults", Part Three-"Freedom"
Writing About Writing This

Epiphany

"Freedom" seemed less so
even as a runaway
considering "stuff."

One of my best strengths,
feeling at home anywhere,
a double-edged sword.

I lied to myself,
just compounding all his lies,
that this was OK.

It was easier,
easier to lie than to,
you know, tell the truth.

I'd let him take me.
I'd let him take me over.
I gave him my brain.

When he got fired
from his job flipping burgers,
something clicked inside.

All his promises
started to seem more empty.
The fog was lifting.

Though mostly selfish,
I could start to imagine
my parents' anguish.

(Hurting family
is the one bit that still hurts,
my only regret)

Living in his car
or with those who would hurt me
was losing appeal.

He'd squelched all reason,
separating me from mine,
but truth will shine through.

One day I just knew.
I had to finish high school.
I had to go home.

(to be continued)

30 comments:

  1. Again. I just love this series. Brilliant!

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  2. So, how many more of the series are there? I'm anxious to see what leads to where.

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  3. I sit on the edge of my chair every Friday, waiting to see how this unfolds.

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  4. This is such an incredible way to tell the tale. Looking forward to next time too!

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  5. I answered zoeyjane, but in case anyone wonders, here is the official word on the series and how much more there is:

    "I'm not positive, but at least another couple installments. And then maybe one more or so. Some of it's written, some of it isn't yet."

    I'm getting there, and it is winding down after the Epiphany because after an epiphany things tend to get different.

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  6. good you were able to get clear headed enough to come around. can't wait to see how it all works out. i mean i know it works out, just can't wait to see the pictures!

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  7. I just found you and I love this compilation. I can't imagine the emotions involved in it for you and your family...

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  8. Awesome.

    I can't believe I somehow missed the beginning of the series. Now I'm going to have to go read the rest!

    Thanks for stopping by my blog!

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  9. I will be back to hear how this turns out, but I think I know. I hope I'm right. :) Nice writing to have us all so intrigued.

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  10. Another great installment. I'm sad to see it may only last a coule more! It's a great way to tell this story - little snippets of it, hints of everything, a taste to want us more and more!

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  11. However you got to where you are, whatever it has been that has made you who you are, and whatever reason there is for you to stay as you are, is all good enough for me.

    You are one helluva woman.

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  12. aaaah, that moment of clarity. and then one wonders how one could have missed it.....

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  13. This part intrigues me...so I'm going back to see what I missed!

    Love your 'Ku!

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  14. When I realized that today was Friday, my first thought was Maggie's Haiku Series! I'm so happy to see the fog starting to lift and can't wait for the next installment! Thanks for sharing something so personal with us!

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  15. I'm so impatient for the entire story, lol! You really know how to string us along ... ;-)

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  16. You described your awakening to the situation brilliantly. So good of you to write about this.

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  17. I'm enjoying reading your story. :)

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  18. Sounds like one of those moments when you get that sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach.....

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  19. Oh my heart aches a little reading this one. I can only imagine the emotional struggles tugging at your every nerve, thought, and decision. Amazing.

    I'm anxiously awaiting for more.

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  20. The more I hear about this guy the more he sounds like a real prize. Can you just forward me the continuation so I can read it now? I'm not really much of a "wait-er". :)

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  21. Asking the same question as ZJ ... I am curious about the "happy ending".

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  22. Learning through our mistakes is never easy … and often leaves ‘regrets’ … but is sometimes absolutely necessary. Wonderfully K’ud as always … and so brave. I'm glad you're still counting the smoke free days ;--)
    Hugs and blessings,

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  23. Wow, telling a story with haiku. I can't wait to see what happens next.

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  24. Yes, I understand the regret of hurting family. That is my only regret about my absence also.

    I am very much enjoying this series as it opens my eyes to things I haven't thought about in a long time and maybe didn't fully deal with at the time.

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  25. Incredible, honest. Thank you. I love when people can be that way on their blogs. I hope you feel you got your happy ending. I can't wait to hear more.

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  26. wow, funny how we get into these little fixes where we seem to believe *everything* some guy says... i haven't run away (i tried once) but i've been there and dated *that* guy (a few of them actually), and isn't it so liberating when your mind finally breaks free and you realize, hey!

    i'm sure glad you did! this is quite a series. bravo again on the storytelling!

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  27. Can't wait to hear the rest! Are you feeling better with the whatever you call it thing you had? Hope so! Have a great weekend!

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  28. I love these posts, I am new to your site, I found you through Jenninholland and I'm so glad I did, You are right sometimes you forget how things sound or appear to others when you are so used to them inside your own head. Thank you for sharing your story with us it truly is wonderfully written.... i'll def be visiting you again ...lots probably!

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