Friday, December 05, 2008


Haiku Friday


I didn't love you,
refused to see your beauty
closed my mind, my eyes.

There'd been some pain here
complicating the issue;
not your fault, was mine.

It took seeing you
through charm'd eyes of outsiders
to feel it myself.

Slowly, slowly, then
my stubborn heart relented,
your gray veil lifted.

And I saw lush green,
and then I saw the mountains
and your coastal shores.

Peace, serenity
for the price of a short drive,
a lagging soul's balm.

I saw a downtown
filled with diversity, fun,
accessible, too.

Public living room,
that started to feel like home,
I let it happen.

It took a decade.
I became a Portlander,
newly smitten, still.

And yet, there'd been plans,
wheels were set into motion
before I loved you.

Knowing I'd be gone
I considered what I'd lose;
full force it happen'd.

My mourning began
as I fell in love with you,
but I'm grateful still.

I think I needed
to have loved you completely
before moving on.

Not to have done so
would have been a total waste.
It's worth my heartache.

Portland, Oregon,
I love you, I'll miss you so.
Thank you. Please stay green.

(Please save me a seat,
on the steps of Courthouse Square
in case I come "home.")

(written 9/17/2008)

I rarely break out of haiku format on Fridays, but I will here just long enough to say that I'm moving to Tulsa, OK to be with Tom, finally after 9 long months apart because things have worked out in such a way that there is no reason for me to stay here longer, and losing my job here a few weeks ago has pretty much been the cherry on top. If you read the private blog (email me if you need an invitation), you know the rest of the story, but this is the public version. Anyway, on Friday the movers come to take everything, and Tom will fly out so that on Saturday we can start driving to our new home, taking the Southern Route: Portland, OR-Sacramento, CA-Flagstaff, AZ-Albuquerque, NM-Amarillo, TX-Tulsa, OK. We are hoping to track our trip in real time with GPS here on my blog if it works properly, partly because modern technology is just fun but also because we'd be easier to find if we ran into any serious trouble. That's how I am. Next time you hear from me, Tom will be next to me as I write, and I'm sure to be smiling because being in his arms is "home" wherever we are.

I may not get to comment back as much for a few days while on the road, but I still love ya's, and I'll get caught up once I get there. Meanwhile, thanks for reading.


  1. Wow! What a wonderful, life-changing event! You're not alone in moving to be with someone you love. Been there myself. Good luck, and here's hoping the move goes smoothly!

  2. Hooray! I'm so glad you can be back with Tom. And good luck on your move! I hope you enjoy Tulsa!

  3. i am so happy for you! at last!!! enjoy tom!!!!!

  4. Wow, tracking you is going to be sooo awesome because I'm a geek like that :P. Take pictures along the way, too! And share them, too - iPhone (which I own, too) can make all that happen and quite easily!

    Ok, I don't know how you'll feel about this, but you tell me. I think this may be the closest chance we'll have to meet in any foreseeable future, and I would so love to meet my quitting twin-back-then that I'd drive two hours to Bakersfield to grab a quick bite or something on your way to Tulsa, if AT ALL possible logistics-wise. I don't even know when you'll be driving through Bakersfield...

    Either way, I hope you're very excited, and I wish you a very awesome trip, and can't wait to be watching your hi-tech reporting along the way. :)

  5. Be safe, sweetheart; have a good journey. So good to know you're going home, at last.

  6. That is awesome! I know how hard it can be to be away from someone that you love and when things fall into place and you can be together its a wonderful feeling! Have a safe trip and as always that is a beautiful haiku, I always enjoy popping in on a Friday to read what you've written :)

  7. Oh, what a happy and sad Haiku! You have such a wonderful way with these things!

    I'm SO excited for you! Tom flying in today, the great adventure trip, getting to maybe following you along..... all very exciting! Enjoy all of it, but espcially just being with Tom again!

  8. I'm just so teary for you. It is such a lovely haiku, and I know "parting is such sweet sorrow", but your new beginning is just so exciting!
    I am so happy for you! :)
    Drive carefully!

  9. Wow--that's such wonderful news. It's amazing how life works out. I'm so happy for you. Your haiku is son wonderful--you really captured how bittersweet goodbyes can be.

  10. How exciting! What a great adventure for you...and this was a great snapshot of your feelings at this point in your life.

    Good luck with your move.

  11. What an awesome adventure! When I saw the post title I thought you were shutting down your blog and was all, "Aww C'mon!

    Now that I know the story, I'm looking forward to following along. Good luck!

  12. What a beautiful tribute to your city. Congratulations that the day is finally almost here - so exciting!

  13. Good luck Maggie!! Have a safe trip and enjoy Tom's arms around you!

  14. Beautiful, beautiful wonderful Ku, Maggie!

    So glad you're going into his arms finally, for good!

    I wish you traveling mercies! :-)

  15. So, so, so happy for you and Tom.

    Please travel safe.

  16. I'm so happy for you Maggie...Please be safe on your travels......

  17. Safe travels dear Maggie! I'm so happy for your new start and your reconnecting with your love, Tom.


  18. What a beautiful words! Enjoy your travel!

  19. Good Luck! Hope everything works out and your trip goes well!

  20. Wow.. this is one of the best Haiku's I have read in months..


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