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When I said that I don't always have to do what I have to be willing to do, I meant that the very act of processing the possibility of scary scenarios, and as part of that process exploring my willingness not to go to Japan if that looked like it would be best/necessary, clarified some important things in my life, so that process of becoming willing (or determining that I was already willing) was worthwhile because of what I learned from it, regardless of what happens from here.
I still hope like hell that I don't have to do that which I would be willing to do.
Clear as mud now? Since this post is really just a footnote to the last, and because I like orderliness and have enough that's out of my hands right now, I'm closing comments on this post so that any comments can go on the real post.