Did some remodeling on here today. I was feeling claustrophobic and stuffy in the same old digs and wanted to freshen it up a bit. Plus, Blogger drew me in with the new tools and features. So, I suppose this is as good of a time as any to dip a toe back in the bloggy waters. I just got so far behind with not keeping up with all of the pictures I was taking and so busy going and doing my thing that I fell out of the habit. It's easier to stop writing than it is to start.
I also came to realize, too, that this private space I'd created here in the public was not as private as I thought. Imagine that. It's one thing to write for strangers (who you later meet and like and consider friends in the real life world - but that's different), but it feels different to write when you find out that more real life people than you thought are reading. It's not that I've been completely anonymous or anything, but there is a certain spirit or sense of anonymity that always made me feel like I could express myself here in words, pictures, haikus and silly lists in ways that would just feel really naked and awkward in person. I can't really explain all this. Some of you get it. I've read it on your blogs. It's been the death of many blogs. And sometimes the birth of new, less identifiable ones, as well.
So, I thought about killing this one off, letting it continue to disappear in the silence I've already created. I even set up a new blog with a pretty template that drew me back in this morning. Then I couldn't think of a goddamn name. I sat there for over two hours. I even resorted to name generator utilities online after the dictionary and thesaurus seemed all out of good words to make up a name. Part of the problem was that I had no idea just what it is I would have done with a new blog, starting from scratch. Honestly, I just liked the ooh shiny things and pretty colors.
So, I revamped this one instead. It's now highly changeable in an easy way, so it will change when the spirit moves me. That, also, is when I will post stuff on here. No commitments, no pressures, no promises. In the (gulp) 8 months I've been not posting, I have to admit that I felt a little bit free, if that makes sense. Still, I missed it. I missed you. It feels a little weird breaking the ice again and having no idea where I'll be going with this (other than the annual tribute post I'll do tomorrow - another reason I am back). So, for now, just: Hi.