Friday, September 10, 2010

Hi.

Hi.

Did some remodeling on here today. I was feeling claustrophobic and stuffy in the same old digs and wanted to freshen it up a bit. Plus, Blogger drew me in with the new tools and features. So, I suppose this is as good of a time as any to dip a toe back in the bloggy waters. I just got so far behind with not keeping up with all of the pictures I was taking and so busy going and doing my thing that I fell out of the habit. It's easier to stop writing than it is to start.

I also came to realize, too, that this private space I'd created here in the public was not as private as I thought. Imagine that. It's one thing to write for strangers (who you later meet and like and consider friends in the real life world - but that's different), but it feels different to write when you find out that more real life people than you thought are reading. It's not that I've been completely anonymous or anything, but there is a certain spirit or sense of anonymity that always made me feel like I could express myself here in words, pictures, haikus and silly lists in ways that would just feel really naked and awkward in person. I can't really explain all this. Some of you get it. I've read it on your blogs. It's been the death of many blogs. And sometimes the birth of new, less identifiable ones, as well.

So, I thought about killing this one off, letting it continue to disappear in the silence I've already created. I even set up a new blog with a pretty template that drew me back in this morning. Then I couldn't think of a goddamn name. I sat there for over two hours. I even resorted to name generator utilities online after the dictionary and thesaurus seemed all out of good words to make up a name. Part of the problem was that I had no idea just what it is I would have done with a new blog, starting from scratch. Honestly, I just liked the ooh shiny things and pretty colors.

So, I revamped this one instead. It's now highly changeable in an easy way, so it will change when the spirit moves me. That, also, is when I will post stuff on here. No commitments, no pressures, no promises. In the (gulp) 8 months I've been not posting, I have to admit that I felt a little bit free, if that makes sense. Still, I missed it. I missed you. It feels a little weird breaking the ice again and having no idea where I'll be going with this (other than the annual tribute post I'll do tomorrow - another reason I am back). So, for now, just: Hi.

17 comments:

  1. Hey stranger! I was really excited to see your post in my Reader this morning. Welcome back.

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  2. welcome back...I so agree with you about friends/family reading that you didnt realize were and how somehow there is a loss of spirit I walk on egg-shells thinking okay who will 'think' this is about them!!!

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  3. I was so excited to see you in my reader this morning! Welcome back, I love what you've done with the place. I hope you'll be around more often.

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  4. Oh, wow! I am ecstatic to read your words on the blog again.

    xo

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  5. Yay! So glad to see you are back! Woohoo!

    And I LOVE the new look. I've been looking for a new fall background and I am HIGHLY jealous of this one. Who'd have thought blogger would have such gorgeous backgrounds? I'll have to check it out.

    I know EXACTLY what you mean about people you know reading your blog. It does make you feel differently, a little more guarded, when you write. I feel the same way, though I try not to change what I write despite who is reading. I hope you can still feel freedom in your writing too.

    SO HAPPY TO READ YOU AGAIN!!

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  6. Hi Maggie! As you may know, I can relate. (In-laws found the blog, and they were NOT nice. Still reading daily as far as I can tell.) Anyway, I LOVE having you back.

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  7. Hi Maggie, it's so good to hear from you again. Just a couple of days ago, I was thinking of you, wondering how you're doing,and here you are! I LOVE the new layout. Hope to see more of you again. Ooh and pictures, I really missed your pictures!

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  8. I'm just all kinds of happy that you are back. I've missed you!

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  9. I've missed you and your writings so much. I hope you're back for a while.

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  10. Holy Moly! Glad you are back but I understand the need to "get away" from blogging. Know you were missed!

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  11. Hello! Glad to see you're blogging again :)

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  12. Hi Maggie,
    Glad to know that you are well and that something horrible did not happen over there in Japan.
    I understand your bloggy sentiments exactly.
    Welcome back, however long that might be.

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  13. oh boy i know EXACTLY what you mean! I'VE MISSED YOU though!!!!!!!! I'm so glad to hear from you and I can't wait to see more of your beautiful words and pictures.

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  14. just noticed you've picked up posting again! So good to have you back!

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